Tuesday, August 19, 2008


sorry pic didn't upload yesterday.
OUt searching for today's

Monday, August 18, 2008

Daughter back. Lovely as she is , was enjoying my space and peace on my own. I do not get enough.
Thoroughly irritable today as was she. Miserable day brightened up by this sight.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Saturday, August 16, 2008


Bad mood. Have lost a favourite denim jacket. Have a cleaning lady who manages to leave stains on carpet that nothing will remove. And daughter who has been with her dad for a week has come back and I find it hard to get back into being the person who is irritating to her in all ways. And I am irritated with her. I want to scream. I also want to be alone again, just for a little while. In a space I can breath again. Does this make me a bad mother I wonder?
Brent Cross again today. Bungies were in force. Photo of the day. The ceiling at BC.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Thursday's Photo - Dance night


Liked the idea of a photo a day by the man in America. Seen in the Guardian G2 yesterday.
In 1979, a young New York film student called Jamie Livingston decided to take one Polaroid image every day of his life.
Here is last night's.

Friday, August 1, 2008



Cy Twombly piece

A few days ago my daughter's friend came home from being away a month. She is 17 has had ME for two years, and went away while her home has had all the rot removed from it and is being repainted with waterbased paint. She came home to a house in chaos, and paint fumes that stopped her breathing and sent her heart racing. She is now here with me and her best friend (my daughter). It is lovely to see her and frightening to see her so ill. She lies on the sofa watching DVD's with M who hasn't seen her best friend for 7 months even though she is a five minute walk away. She talks of the anger and pain of losing friends who don't call and she feels forgotten, except by my daughter who has called her every day for the last two years. This has been a terrible experience for her, she has lost so much weight due to food sensitivity which leaves her in crippling pain. She has to have oxygen three times a day. But then she chats to my daughter about dancing , and boys and I think for a short pocket of time she is interacting with another teenager and there is absolute normality back again. We love her. I really hope she will be better soon. I think her parents are now totally penniless and beside themselves with worry.