First Draft nearly finished

It is with great delight I report that the first draft of what I laughingly call my novel is coming to a close.
I hope I will hit the deadline of the end of the month. The finish line is in sight. Then I shall put it aside and
look at it again in a month.

I have found the finish the most difficult part. As in everything it seems. I cannot bring myself to finish with my
lover, even though it would be the sensible option. His wife is now monitoring him - has given him a contract phone
so she can keep tabs on his calls, and stays home to work, most days. I am not making this easy for anyone by staying,
but as I said before endings are difficult.My natural inclination is to give my novel a happy ending, but life isn't like
that, is it? There are messy bits, bits that don't work, people left incomplete or dissatisfied. One of my characters who has
been having an affair is realising how important his wife is to him. It's true. I think it is true in my case too. She is the
important one, I am merely a distraction. That doesn't pain me at all. It is as it should be. But in the novel, I think the turn around
is too quick. Usually men leave, then realise the horror of having changed one bad situation for another, and limping return to their wives. My character seems to be cleverer than that, and realising sooner than most men would. I have to think on this a bit more.

Also have just read a really interesting book. It's called the Raw Shark Texts by Steven Hall. Very original, and a real
page turner.